Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Lessons of Love

On one fine winter day, my roommate turned to me and with complete sincerity and said,
"Oh my Gosh I totally have puppy fever right now!" Strangely enough I felt the same way.
We spent a few weeks chatting back and fourth about the pros and cons of adopting a dog but never really got anywhere with our discussions. So I decided that I was just gonna let it be. I figured that if God thought it was a good idea for me to have a dog...then he would make it happen. I decided I wasn't going to go looking for a dog but I would be open to the idea if one happen to stumble into my lap. So we just dropped the idea all together.

But then something amazing happened...I was standing in my kitchen getting ready for my birthday party when I got a text asking if I knew anyone who would want a puppy...

boy did I know somebody......


And then he came into my life!!!!!


Desmond


When I first saw him he was in his kennel with a few of his other brothers and sisters. I noticed him right away because he was the biggest in the bunch. He was also the last one to come out from the kennel. He had this look on his face of confusion, like he didn't understand what was going on (kind of like the one in the picture of him above), I loved that about him. After standing by himself for a little while he proceeded to pee in a nice little puddle (while still inside the very small kennel) then he jumped around....in his pee, then without hesitation he ran up to me and jumped in my lap, leaving pee paw prints all over my gray leggings.

Right then I told him his name was Desmond and that I loved him...even though he just peed on my brand new gray leggings. That was the first demonstration of unconditional love I showed Desmond, though while he peed on my leg I still took him home with me that day...Kind of like while we were sinners Christ died for us...well maybe that isn't a very similar sacrifice =) But the unconditional love part is.



Lauren's biggest worry about getting a dog was, what would happen if one of us moved out? Who would get to keep the dog? So we found the perfect solution...we got two puppies!!!!!

Murphy

While Desmond is a manly destroyer...Murphy is such a little lover! Who couldn't love a face like that?




So we have these new little bundles of Joy....who surprise us everyday...Mostly with surprise piles of poop and puddles of pee...but a joy nonetheless.
They wear T-shirts and sweaters



They really like rawhide bones


They sleep......a lot...mostly when they aren't peeing or pooping



and I am incredibly grateful =)

Monday, December 29, 2008

Just so you know Lord

I trust you

My hope is in you and you alone

please take my heart and have it feel only for you

I love you with my life

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I can not believe that this year is almost over. Tomorrow I will be 23 years old. I feel like every year I so do not look forward to getting older. Its not the whole growing up thing that I don't feel comfortable with, I'm pretty sure it is just the idea of change. Don't get me wrong I'm not one of those crazys who freaks out at the thought of change(at least not anymore). But there is something about being 23 that just doesn't settle right with me. I am grateful for this for so many reasons.

You know last year, right before I turned 22 I had a few moments where I was really not looking forward to it. I wasn't ready to be 22 because being 21 was so much fun.

But here is where it works out. It seems my life always takes me by surprise when I am faced with situations like this. The situations in my life I dread the most always turn out far better then I could ever imagine.

Its really actually funny. And it is an amazing blessing. It is one of the perks of following Jesus. I never realized it before but the older I get the more I can sense God working in my life.

And so when I think about turning 23 I still may get a slight knot in my stomach , but truly in the depths of my soul I rejoice. For I know that God has given me another year to Love and be loved by him. I stopped gauging my age by life achievements if that makes sense. But every year I stop and look back on how far God brought me and that is how I measure my growth. How close he brought me to him. How he showed me grace and how he showed me his mighty love. I wish I could tell you in words you would be able to understand. I wish you knew what it is like to stand in awe of your creator and experience Love in the most raw and real form.


My hope for this next year is to be completely captivated by my Lord. My hope is that God will take my life and use it however hes sees fit to bring glory to his kingdom. My hearts desire is to experience God in the most intimate way possible while still living on earth, and to see his kingdom multiply. I never thought I would feel this way.....I never knew I could want this so bad...but all I truly want is to see the world come to know Jesus.
My hope and my prayer for this year is that God uses my life to make Jesus famous.....For real.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

God your Graciousness feeds my soul.

You know I sometimes try to use the example of how my life was before I started following Jesus compared to how my life is now,when i try to explain what it has been like to follow Jesus. I have to say that my life the past few years have been amazing, but thats not even what it is about.

Where I have been and who I once was, doesn't even phase me. Words I have said, people I have hurt, actions that I have taken.....I forget that they were lived out by me. Looking back on it I think that anyone in the world would look at where I've come from, and wonder how I sleep at night...and then wonder what the heck happen to that crazy selfish girl I once was. I was so lost. I was so dumb. I was out of control.

I remember all the things that happened, but I no longer feel accountable for them. When I made the decision to let God lead me in life I was freed. I didn't even realize that was gonna happen. I thought God was gonna help me deal with it and turn away from who I once was...but I never imagined that I would feel so pardoned. Restoration is priceless, and completely undeserving.

I remember everything and when I think back on how life was and who I was..... I feel how God must have felt when I was there. Like I feel how broken his heart was...its very strange...but it is also incredible.

I can't really explain it. I am terribly grateful.

God please continue to use my life to tell the world about your son and your amazing and unfailing love. My heart will forever be yours